starting again.

It never fails. Everytime something changes, be it where I am or the state that I am in, I always find myself going back to the beginning. I always to have to pick up from where I think I left off. And its never easy. There are always roadblocks preventing me from keeping things going.

Lately I've been feeling like I'm becoming such a mess. Its harder to find the strength to be the best version of me. I don't know if its age or lack of motivation, but its harder to get going again. I keep thinking, I've done this before, why did things have to happen to make me start all over?

But I have to be honest. Most of the reasons why I had to step back was because of my decisions as well. I decided to move and therefore I must deal with starting from scratch. Its ironic really, that which actually gives me more room to move is also hindering me from getting things going. I'm trying, I really am....but I need help. I need my moral support to be much closer to me. I need my motivation to be much more tangible.

I need to get my act together. Life keeps on going while I sit confused and overwhelmed.

restless yet again

In the past week I've changed my blog layout twice. I've lost count of how many times I've changed templates in the course of my 6 and a half year old blog.

Its one of those moments when I feel like the whole look isn't me....and I don't really know what "me" means these days....

But thats another blog post. For now, thank you to Simply Fabulous Blogger Templates for the wonderful designs. What would the internet be without these talented people?

(Stay tuned by the way, I may change it yet again!).

Soon after I posted this, I found another template again. Thank you Blogger Tricks!