When we view things from a safe distance, we can manipulate them into becoming what we want them to be, but up close, sometimes they're not what we imagine them to be.

Will two restless souls ever go anywhere?

office sessions

Last week we had photo sessions at work. We transformed the conference room into studios, used a borrowed light (dont know how those things are called) and three camera flash(es) set as slaves plus used the upcoming SPeciaL Awards as an excuse to lure subjects/models into the mock studios.

The result: photos galore! working with lights were a bit tricky sometimes...but I had experts working with me (salamat kay topeng at neil!). We took turns taking photos (well Topeng and I did, Neil was the pro photographer onsite) and arranged and re-arranged the lights over and over again.

Some sample shots:

Jeng doing her wave thing

Allan being Allan

the sumi smile

me being uber-vain :D

what do you get when you cross a serious-y group photo and an editing fan? An SPL Telenovela!

trying.

trying to make sense of all the different thought running in my head
cant seem to make even one of the stop for a while to let them explain
explain to me what they mean

and why they've been restlessly popping up and out over and over and over again.

trying to focus on one thought, zoom in on them one at a time
so I can explore and know and learn what its trying to say
but the simple task of isolating thoughts seem to have to left me
has this ability been replaced by yet more thoughts? more words to confuse me,
more words that make no sense.

trying to convince myself that this will all make sense soon,
that the befuddled thoughts are part of the process of understanding, growing and becoming
so still I try, and the thought come pouring in,
running around inside my head.

family weekend

Spent the weekend with my family since my sister and her kids came over.
Pictures say a whole lot more, so I've put together some of the shots I took of the kids and my ate and kuya.

And then I realized that I'm shooting again. There is hope...

of permits and of leave(s)

Originally filed for a two-day leave to have a four-day weekend Baguio trip. Again, unforeseen circumstances prevented that. Have to stay behind and face responsibilities. Again, I ask, I AM getting old, aren't I? (and no, an answer to the obvious question is not needed)

Used up one-fourth of that leave to get some much needed, long overdue errand time. I am now the holder of a Student's Permit. Driving lessons are next. Note: diving lessons are also next, but there's no permit needed to learn how to dive. On my palm now lies a "USED" stamp. Yes. Used up. And I needed LTO to tell me that?

craniacs anonymous

Hi, I'm Socs. I'm a Craniac.

It started with stories from Con and Pads about Cranium sessions they've been having in the US.
And then Pads brought home Cranium Turbo Edition, and left it with me.
Now we can't stop playing.
red, green, yellow and blue...
I still hear the timer playing that tune. 6 pm and its not pingpong time, nor is it billiards time...

Cranium na yan!!

for want of an update

Didnt do anything exciting...but my blog needs an update, so what the hell...

saturday

There was a game scheduled for Saturday. It was the usual handful people from work + some college batchmates who've been my occassional soccer pals in the past years since graduation.
Unfortunately, shortly after lunch the weather started turning bad. Unfortunately, being the "automatic" organizer of the whole thing, people suddenly started asking about the game. I had to decide, and I had to decide fast, before people start leaving their homes. When I heard the rumble of thunder I just had to cancel. Plus it didn't help that I won't be able to play even if it was just drizzling (dont ask, just try me when I say I cant).
And then I got pleas to not cancel, mostly from my college buddies who've been dying to play. But I already did. So there. Sometimes, its a real pain to be the one to pull the plug on things. I won't be surprised if people start hating me in the future.
Spent the rainy early evening rushing off to Cainta to help out my mom. Good thing hindi naman baha anywhere and I got to SL without too much hassle.

sunday

I had an escape plan. I needed to get out of the house and the solution was: go shopping. Sure, I was not supposed to spend another penny since I was close to broke. BUT I needed leather shoes. No, this was not a "want". Its a "need". I work in Makati, and I'm supposed to wear office clothes 4 out 5 days...I need black leather shoes.
So I went to Glorietta on my own. Eyed a pair of lovely leather boots that will go with anything. Price was a bit steep...for the quality, it was cheap, but for my budget...it was way over. Fate helped out a bit since they didn't have it in my size. The end result, a new pair of leather shoes for half the price of the boots I wanted, plus one or two new shirts for work. Not bad at all.

about my blog

I think I need a new title. Unfortunately, I was never good at titles. I also want a new template. Still havent found a good one yet though. I want the easy free, cut and paste type of blog template. Oh and if I do update it, it will be my 5th or 6th template update. Talk about changing minds often.

When all the make-believe is gone, and you no longer need to fight
And all the personal demons have left you, letting you sleep at night
And the only thing you're left with is you...
Are you ready to face yourself
Are you ready to be with you really are?
Are you ready to know,
that underneath all the hate, the pain and the pretense you've put up
Deep inside you're plain and normal like everyone else.
Maybe all that drama and made-up up pain was just something you wanted,
something you needed,
to hide the fact that deep inside you're plain and normal just like everyone else.

oh yeah.

Here's a blog update....I was supposed to go here:

BUT due to circumstances beyond my control, I am still here.
Not there. Just here. Where I have always been. Most of the time.

positively GREEN.

I'm Blue and White all the way... but for Tori, I'm willing to go GREEN.

Weeks back, Pads called me up to tell me he was at a TORI AMOS concert. He

made me listen to her (via phone) and it both made AND ruined my day.

Made, because I heard her; Ruined, because I wasn't there.

Either way, it was still something...a major milestone. Its nice to have friends

who share the experience. Its even nicer when they bring you back something

as nice as this shirt :)