Is all that antagonism really called for?

Call me naïve, but from what I see, we all have the same goals here…so why does one have to make it so difficult for the other?

Day by day I am realizing that maybe I really am not cut out for this.
I thrive where people work together and a handful of hostility can be easily squashed with a little bitchy foot.

indulgences

every now and then we have to give ourselves permission to indulge...last saturday, I allowed myself to spend for brunch at one of New York's popular places...Tavern on the Green at Central Park. Yeah, it was the priciest brunch I've ever had...but how many people can actually say they've been there?!? Okay, a lot maybe...but still, I know a lot who probably wouldnt have spent for that. This photo is an authentic fremed souvenir.

tavern group, originally uploaded by socs.

after brunch, it was on to more cash out of the wallet. TKTS for Broadway. I was not in any mood that day to watch Broadway, but when I saw that they had tickets for Avenue Q available, I immediately lit up and recommended it to my companions. We got our tickets at 50% off and though they werent the best seats in the house, I was happy. I have been wanting to see this show since I saw the 2004 Tony Awards. my chance had come. and I have the programme to prove it too! (plus the memories of those scenes, songs and storylines....I will never look at a puppet the same way again!)

now that I've had my second Broadway experience...I'm craving for more....maybe next week? lets see....does it still count as an indulgence if it becomes a once a week thing?

typical morning:

i wake up to the sound of the cellphone alarm. its a sound i've grown to hate. and a sound i recognized from the countless people in the street who has the same phone model. and there are lots. In the office alone, one person a few desks from me uses the same tone as his ringtone. and everytime i hear it I feel like throwing stones at it. shut up alarm! i want to sleep some more! in fact, i want to sleep for, oh, i dont know...maybe 6 weeks and approximately 3 days more?

on better mornings a phone rings before the alarm goes off. that i dont mind. when it rings there are only two choices, either way, I wouldn’t mind hearing either voice. most of the time, its who I expect it to be…and for a few brief moments I am happy to be awake. its actually among the best time of the day for me. and like most best things, it ends too soon. And the alarm goes off the snooze mode and starts that irritating sound again.

more and more, I'm finding it hard to accept that second sound of the alarm and let me fully wake me up, to push myself out of bed and get going, to put down that phone and face facts that yeah, I have to face another day here in order find myself home. soon.

so i drag myself out of bed and end the day so that it can begin again the same way the following morning.