what? no coffee??

At my brother's insistence, I am TEMPORARILY giving up coffee and will be going for *gasp* tea instead.

He insisted that my repeated flu attacks along with my weird stomach pains that appear out of nowhere and are gone just as quickly, are symptoms of me having too much toxins in my body.

Of course I did put up quite a fight, saying that I got it from someone who has the cold, that the weather's been really bad and that I've been tired these past few weeks...

But then I had to admit he was right. How can I not have too many toxins in me anyway?

So as a baby step -- that pains me immensely, mind you -- I have opted to fill up my I LOVE TEA mug with exactly that, TEA.


At least I still won't suffer from caffeine withdrawal symptoms.

I confess to moments of "insanity".

Often, when I am alone and with nothing to keep me preoccupied, I revert to thinking. And dealing with my "personal demons". That keeps this blog, well, varied somewhat.

I just had a thought....as I was about to write a sentence describing my thoughts as "weird", I asked myself what is so weird with what I think.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
I am only human after all.

Thoughts from Friday night, August 10, 2005

I had a weird idea. It came to me as I was heading home, on a taxi with my mom. I had the sudden urge to contact someone I had "lost touch" with. I had a curiosity attack. Knowing what I know now, and having been through what I have been through, I wanted to know how it would be. The circumstances would have changed, and the points of views would have been altered already.

I had a fleeting image of myself in that meeting, watching myself as if I were another person. I wanted that kind of detachment. I wanted to see that detachment if I had gone ahead and met up with that person.

But I didn't go through with it. Looking back now, I think it was best that I didnt. It would not have done me any good.

And then I had another idea.

I remembered my fee miles from PAL and half formulated a plan to just find out where they fly, and fly myself there. It has to be somewhere I have never been. Somewhere I have yet to explore. And it has to be somewhere where I know someone so I can crash.

I am your slave...

I was planning on posting something I wrote the other night. But that will have to wait.

Because I got caught up in the Audioslave heat again.

A very resourceful officemate found live performances by Audioslave...and the most interesting part about it is they performed some Soundgarden and Rage Against the Machine songs.

Listening to them made me wish I were there, live, caught up in the music and the raw energy that is inevitable from such an explosive group.

Drown me slowly, enclose me...

Drown me slowly, enfold me...