To cap off a really crappy, non productive day at work, I am heading off to SM Makati. To buy a school bag for my niece.
Hey, I like shopping. Even if its for school supplies. I just can't shrug off the terrible, terrible feeling of not being something.

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Last night, on the way home after watching the office basketball game, I had that feeling again. The feeling of restlessness. Everyone who knows me well, knows that I've always been prone to bouts of restiveness. Hence, my constant questions of "san gimik?" over and over again. Hence, my constant coming-home-late episodes.

I have a theory on why I had that again. But I will keep that to myself. Too personal? Too pathetic? A little bit of both I think.

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Headed over to the other office this afternoon to pay a quick visit to Mommy Maine. She's really showing! A few more months and she'll be giving birth to her firstborn boy. Lette gave her his name suggestions...needless to say, none of them are being considered :p

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A press of a single button and the words come out.."Erased." Just like that. Deleted. No other proof that it ever existed. None whatsoever.
It was a temporary thing. It was not a slip-up nor a momentary lapse in judgment. It had to be done. Because I needed something. I needed to feel the power of being able to control. Of being able to invoke you at will. And delete you at will.

There is a sweet exhilirating feeling that comes with being able to do things this way. Having always viewed everything form the other end of the spectrum, this is not something I'm familiar with. Yet it feels right. Like it is how it was always supposed to be. Now I know, now I feel differently.

I feel a witch cackle bubbling up to the surface. But no, I cannot rejoice so outwardly. A dignified and gracious demeanor is the true measure of inner control and the real trait of a true winner.
So I supress the laughter and smile instead.

the birthdays continue

My brother turns 32 today...and the weird thing is, my sister who is older than both of us, is also 32 today! Only for today though...because tomorrow she's turning 33. Yeah, they're only 364 days apart in terms of age. Yes, my parents have this weird knack for getting the timing right. With me though, I suppose 5 years of not having a kid made them off for a few days...but see, we all have our birthdays on the same month!
Thats the fun thing with me and my siblings. All Virgos.
Happy Birthday Kuya! Happy Birthday Ate!
I know they may never read this, since they're not online...but its still nice to put it out there in the great big internet unknown.
I hope to post photos of all three virgos (me, kuya and ate) next week :)