Grand Central Station with Buddy

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light another candle

The 28th candle lights up today.

The entire day and even the day before, it was just like any other birthday. I didnt have anything fancy planned, just as it would be if I were home.

I didnt spread the word at work here. It was sufficient and heartwarming enough that my co-workers in Manila remembered, and were sending their Happy Birthdays since yesterday. Loved ones have wished me well already so everything was complete.

But as I was walking home today, I suddenly realized that when I come home, I was going to NOT celebrate my birthday alone. NOT celebrating at home where everyone else was around me (albeit not celebrating) is one thing, but not celebrating alone is another. I tried to get myself something just to make like I'm doing something but the small cakes that used be at the supermarket nearby were nowhere to be seen.

For the first time, I'm NOT celebrating my birthday on my own. Its not depressing, I think. It just feels...well, weird.

I guess it could be worse....I could really be celebrating it, but still be on my own.

buzz around my head won't you?

If there's one thing I didnt expect to ask myself this year, its this question. The question that been running in my head over and over again. I didnt think I would reach this point...but never say never truly.

No, its NOT that part of my life. that's doing very very well :)

This is more, well, something thats been part of me for oh...a little over 5 years I think. And its a common theme believe me.

I'm starting with the questions....I suppose the answers cannot be far away...right?