Over the weekend my parents and I visited what I had always wanted for myself.

I did tell myself to be cautious on my way there, to not get my hopes up, that my being there was just the first step to getting the dream, it was for research.

But having seen it, and then realizing that I am so far away from getting it still just disturbed me.

Its a goal I know. But I have to find out how I'll get there. I need options. I need a way. I have to be enlightened.