a roll of black and white film!!!
its a sign...I must go out and shoot.
I dont know when, I dont know where and I have no idea how. I just know I MUST!!!
I found the lone treasure while cleaning out my office mobile. *sigh* even after a pile of unwanted papers and a stack of old useless notebooks have been thrown away, its contents still look like trash to me.
This from someone who wants to study Interior Design???!!?? Maybe my sister's incredulity when I told her about my PSID plans for next year was a sign that this is not what I should get into....
but then, is there such a thing as a professional couch potato?
Haay. Must rethink my life path.
Jul 11, 2005
one week later
Today ends my 9-day no-work hiatus...*sigh* it was fun while it lasted. But it was well worth it, and definitely called for.
For those who are lost, I was not at work the entire week last week. Okay, let me rephrase that, I did not work at all last week. Instead, I did some long overdue visiting, lots of oversleeping and of course, lots of overeating :)
The highlights of my week (and 2 weekends):
San Pablo
I've been promising my ate I would spend a weekend with them at San Pablo right after I got back from the Netherlands. But, as it may have been apparent, the past weeks were HELL!!! As a result, I kept pushing back the scheduled weekend. This time, after the end of my last project and right before I spend a week twiddling my thumbs, I went and visited them for three days.
Sam is such a cute little thing!!! She loves to sit on room corners, squished between the bed and the cabinet, or behind the CD rack...she loves to play with Kuya Paul as well....she always gives that delighted little laugh-scream when she sees him. When she sees Ate Bea though, she daintily raises up her arms and asks her to pick her up...nagpapaalaga.
Bea and Paul are growing up real fast, just like Ally and Carl. What's the phrase? Shooting up like Bamboo? Something like that. I love the fact that they were excited to see me. Bea is such a little lady, getting prettier and slimmer every year. Paul is turning out to be a really chatty one, just like his mom. Hmm...probably not a good thing for a guy is it?
The quest for a home
Finally had time to look around for an apartment. After six places (yes, I havent been to that many places yet) I was ready to give up. Its so hard to find a nice place, in a nice location with just the right price. I found one in the most ideal location, but then the unit itself was depressing....sabi nga nung isang officemate ko, baka daw maisipan kong mag suicide sa lugar na yun. It was dark and small and, well, not good for claustrophobic people....I'm not claustrophobic, but if I live there, I just might turn into one.
So the search is still on. Hopefully I can find one before the month ends.
The Quintessential Errand Girl
Thats me of course. And having more than a few days off from my day job, I naturally had to have some errands to do. Okay, I didnt have to, but I would inevitably end up with more a couple. To be expected, I suppose. After all, they know when I have free time and when I dont... which leads me back to my hunt for my own place....I need one FAST!!
That instance which I refuse to name with anything else.
It is over and done with. I've dealt with it, now it has to be laid to rest. End of story.
For those who are lost, I was not at work the entire week last week. Okay, let me rephrase that, I did not work at all last week. Instead, I did some long overdue visiting, lots of oversleeping and of course, lots of overeating :)
The highlights of my week (and 2 weekends):
San Pablo
I've been promising my ate I would spend a weekend with them at San Pablo right after I got back from the Netherlands. But, as it may have been apparent, the past weeks were HELL!!! As a result, I kept pushing back the scheduled weekend. This time, after the end of my last project and right before I spend a week twiddling my thumbs, I went and visited them for three days.
Sam is such a cute little thing!!! She loves to sit on room corners, squished between the bed and the cabinet, or behind the CD rack...she loves to play with Kuya Paul as well....she always gives that delighted little laugh-scream when she sees him. When she sees Ate Bea though, she daintily raises up her arms and asks her to pick her up...nagpapaalaga.
Bea and Paul are growing up real fast, just like Ally and Carl. What's the phrase? Shooting up like Bamboo? Something like that. I love the fact that they were excited to see me. Bea is such a little lady, getting prettier and slimmer every year. Paul is turning out to be a really chatty one, just like his mom. Hmm...probably not a good thing for a guy is it?
The quest for a home
Finally had time to look around for an apartment. After six places (yes, I havent been to that many places yet) I was ready to give up. Its so hard to find a nice place, in a nice location with just the right price. I found one in the most ideal location, but then the unit itself was depressing....sabi nga nung isang officemate ko, baka daw maisipan kong mag suicide sa lugar na yun. It was dark and small and, well, not good for claustrophobic people....I'm not claustrophobic, but if I live there, I just might turn into one.
So the search is still on. Hopefully I can find one before the month ends.
The Quintessential Errand Girl
Thats me of course. And having more than a few days off from my day job, I naturally had to have some errands to do. Okay, I didnt have to, but I would inevitably end up with more a couple. To be expected, I suppose. After all, they know when I have free time and when I dont... which leads me back to my hunt for my own place....I need one FAST!!
That instance which I refuse to name with anything else.
It is over and done with. I've dealt with it, now it has to be laid to rest. End of story.
Jul 1, 2005
Every single piece in the game has moved the way I would have thought they would -- that is if I had been given the chance to determine how they would move in the first place. But as it is, I am only informed of what how and how they dealt with it now that everything else is done.
At this point in time, I am not supposed to bother with how they acted, how they decided. Rather I am left with questions that pertain only to me....
how am I supposed to deal with it, how do I decide?
I am flying in all directions, pulled apart by anger, hurt, fear, insecurity and the pressure to do the right thing for everyone.
I am spiralling this way and that, and the only peaceful way for me to handle it is to set it aside.
But in not deciding, I have made a decision. And that is something I cannot make myself do.
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