I need something to get my creative juices flowing. Or at least to let me feel that yes, I still do have a hint of creativity in me. I could shoot, but then again, I don’t know where to go and what to shoot. Unfortunately, I can’t think of any interesting places to shoot or even interesting objects. And well, on weekends, I can’t exactly wander out of the house as much. House-sitting not grounded okay?

Or maybe I find too many excuses not to do anything. I can always go at night to wherever it is I may think of going. But then again, nighttime, no car, not safe, tired from work, sleepy, need to wake up early…apparently there’s too many reasons why I shouldn’t.

I could shoot right here in the office….but no, I don’t want to. Not at the moment. Maybe when I get a digital SLR. And that would be….100 years from now? How I wish I can afford it. My little hobby is not so little in the Financial department. Hard times socs, better save up or someday drown…again, am I making excuses?

So okay, lets not focus too much on photography. Maybe I need something very convenient to do but at the same time would boost up my creativity level and would inspire me to do more……..

Yes, nice idea. Now what?

I don’t know. Even now, I’m typing nonsense.

Excuse me, I think I’ll go through my huge pile of Paris pics yet again.

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

[BRIDGE]
And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

[CHORUS]

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
Cos I don't want to lose you (Cos I don't want to lose you)
If you really really really care (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you)

My heart's at a low (low)
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage)
I think you should know that (I think you should know that)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged)
I'm falling in love (I love you so)
There's one disadvantage (I love you so)
I think you should know that I've been damaged

And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you)

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby)
I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

Slow day. No, not really slow. Lazy is more like it.

Been staring at my Reference Manuals the entire morning and I think only 5% of it was absorbed.

My desk looks very cluttered. To my left is an empty coffee mug, a bottle of mineral water, two coasters, my desktop calendar, two training manuals, my notebook and the print out of the Programming Standards. To my right is my phone, my Fuji note pads, yellow post-its and MySpl.com post-its, the crummy 6110 I'm using, an alcogel and my desk paraphernalia.

Oh and two books which I have read, but not finished. Both are not mine.

Behind me is the office corridor where people come and go all the time. And I can't shake off the feeling that someone's reading everything I type behind my back.

I wish they can move to another spot, but I can't seem to find any vacant place nearby.

I wish I can move back to Paris and use the laptop I was using.